Week 1 of intuitive eating

ONE WEEK BINGE FREE! :))) So I started off the new year weighing 113 pounds from water weight from a new year’s eve party, and when that went away, it settled at 111. Which meant that I gained ~1.5 pounds over winter break. :( BUUUT. For the last week I didn’t count calories at all and now I’m back to 109.6! And it’s been way less stressful. I really like intuitive eating. Plus now I get to eat stuff like peanut butter and oatmeal without feeling ridiculously guilty after. It’s so cheesy… but it’s seriously opened my horizons in all aspects of my life. I feel way more motivated to lose weight knowing that what I’m putting in my body is good food. And I have a serious bingeing problem, so going one week without bingeing is amazing. Part of my success is the fact that I’m never hungry. Ahhh. I hope the progress continues… My goal is to hit 109.0 by the middle of next week. 

Winter break reflection

Good
Ran over 100 km (62 miles)! Ahh! My accomplishment of this break. <3 <3 I’ve never run this much in my life and I feel GREAT.
Worked out every day
Stopped counting calories
Started eating more so I felt less weak
Started seeing definition of abs 
Saw 109 pounds on the scale 
Renewed perspective towards weight loss. More intuitive, less numbers, less stress! 

Bad 
Seriously binged 4+ times and screwed up progress. 109 pounds didn’t stay for long :(
Didn’t lose any weight, probably ended up gaining a bit of weight. 
Not enough sleep.

Overall it was okay! I’ve realized that there’s more to my health than my weight. If it comes down to it, I’d rather have the strength to be fit than be weak and thin. 2012, come at me! I will see some amazing progress/

Just spent two hours writing this…

A Complete Guide to Weight Loss

It’s now a new page! Plus I got a new theme :) I hope you guys like it! 

Your new year’s resolutions?

Here are mine:

1. Reach and maintain my UGW of 100 pounds, or reach a weight that I think is sustainable for my fitness/health. (possibly 105?)
2. Run a half marathon and finish under 2 hours AND/OR place in top 3. 
3. Get a six pack baby! ;)
4. Figure out what I want to do in university and the rest of my life.
5. 98%+ GPA.
6. Binge less than once per three weeks. (Preferably not binge at all, but I think that’s rather impossible for me…)
7. Do something exciting photography wise-get booked with a modelling agency or a clothing company perhaps? Same with art wise.
8. Don’t become angsty.
9. Run 1000km in 365 days.
10. Place in top 10 for city cross country championships, top 30 at provincials.
11. Be happy with life. Find inner satisfaction. 

I actually have plans for all these goals. So they’re not just empty words. 2012 is going to be my year.

What are your new year’s resolutions? I wanna hear them :3

I just ran 22km.

I can’t believe I did it. It’s fucking unbelievable. 22km (13.6 miles) is more than a half marathon, and I ran it in two  hours and a half!! I’m proud of myself. I wanted to stop multiple times but I kept on pushing. I think back to half a year ago, on June 30th. I wrote a diary entry about how much I hated running. From 0km to 22km in half a year… wow. I hope everyone who reads this gets their bum off the couch to work out. If i can do it, you can as well. I’m going dress shopping later as a treat. I’m going to be so healthy and sexy in 2012! 

I’m not counting calories anymore.

I went for a walk and I just had an epiphany: I’m not counting calories anymore. For the past month I’ve been obsessing about my intake, to the point where it’s controlling my life. Why should I be spending my time counting the number of sunflower seeds in a cup so I know how many calories are in one seed? Why should I refuse eating an orange because it has “too many calories”? Why should I starve myself so I can be below my caloric limit only to binge later? Why should I systematically measure and record every single thing I eat while inhibiting my health? It seems unnecessary and causes me so much stress.

I shouldn’t refuse a food because it’ll screw up my caloric plan; I should refuse a food because it’s unhealthy. In fact, I have a feeling that when I stop counting calories, I’ll do eat better. For example, if I had 300 calories left in my intake, I’d give myself permission in indulge in chips, leading to a binge. But why? Chips are unhealthy. If I stop counting, the incentive to refuse the chips would be greater. I can’t measure my health in calories. I’ll refuse the chips because my lifestyle doesn’t account for unhealthy food, rather than my caloric limit. Bottom line-my health is much more of a motivator than a number. 

Instead, I’m going to give intuitive eating a go. I’ll eat when I feel hungry, and stop when I’m full. My diet will stay the same, composed mainly of vegetables, fruits, whole grains, and lean meats. Over the summer I lost 5lbs without counting calories. Millions of other people have lost weight without counting calories. Who says I can’t either?

I can’t let this control me. What a lot of people want from losing weight is to gain control. Ironically, I know that if I continue with this, the weight loss is going to control me. I don’t want my obsession to lead to an eating disorder. I’m more than that. I am worth more than my 1000 calorie limit. So much more.

Anyone know of any blogs that post pictures of healthy food?

I’m out of meal ideas waaaah! 

This is how I kick my binge in the butt!

10:30 AM  Breakfast: +160 calories
Rye bread with strawberry jam and peanut butter
Raspberries, strawberries, and 1/4 banana 

11:30 AM 70 minute run: -533 calories

1:00 PM Lunch: +301 calories
Whole wheat turkey sandwich
Spinach, banana, and tomato salad 

4:30 PM Snack: +53 calories
Peanuts
Strawberries
A few bites of rye bread 

5:00 PM Jillian Michael’s 30 Day Shred Level 2: -133 calories

5:45 PM Supper +255 calories
Tofu
Chicken, radish, and celery stirfry
Seaweed and lettuce soup 
Sugar-free strawberry jello 

INTAKE TOTAL: 791 CALORIES
OUTTAKE TOTAL: 666 CALORIES
NET TOTAL: 125 CALORIES 

Obviously this meal/exercise plan isn’t sustainable, which is why I’m only doing it for one day. Tomorrow I’m resuming my regular intake and slightly less intensive workout. I hope to see some results on the scale. Goodbye excess weight!