Day twenty-seven: Does shark week make you hungrier than usual, and do you allow yourself to eat more at this time of the month?

LOL I’VE NEVER HEARD SHARK WEEK USED FOR PERIOD BEFORE. And I think I’m pretty normal :) 

I started Jillian Michael’s 30 day shred today. the workout was only 25 minutes, but man do my arms feel so noodly! It’s great. I actually love being slightly sore from working out because that means I’m pushing myself :) People lose so many inches from this, so I hope that helps with that area. And the 25 minutes went past in a BREEZE. When I run for 25 minutes I feel like dying of boredom, but this workout was fun and challenging. 

I bought a digital scale so I could be more accurate with everything. Also bought some 3lb dumbbells. GUESS WHO’S GONNA GET ARM MUSCLES? I ALSO BOUGHT A YOGA MAT. YEAH. Today was such a good day for fitness. It’s entertaining how getting the equipment makes me feel accomplished… 

Intake:
Apple, celery, carrot, and cucumber frozen yogurt
Turkey sandwich
Sunflower seeds/dried cranberry/almond mix
Spinach/Tomato/bean sprout/squash/turkey salad
TOTAL 840 CALORIES

Exercise:
10 minute ab workout
30 Day shred level 1 - MINUS 133 CALORIES

NET INTAKE - 707 CALORIES

I hope I can break through my plateau with this new workout strategy :3 Wish me luck! Today was such a good eating and exercise day.

I FOUND A REAL LIFE WORK OUT BUDDY

This is honestly one of the most exciting things that’s happened to me in a while. We’re going to work out in the school gym three times a week after school. Fuck yeaaaah. 

Day twenty-six: Do you drink alcohol? What do you generally drink?

I suck at this posting everyday thing D: Friend me on myfitnesspal (strawbirdies) and I’m always active on there. 

Day twenty-two: Are you generally smaller or larger than your friends?
I think I’m like above average. I have some friends that are ridiculously thin (so jealous!) so that makes the average weight very tiny ;-; 

Day twenty-three: Do you feel that your weight holds you back socially?
Nah. I’m definitely not overweight, so I don’t have to deal with the social stigma that comes with that. Nor do I skip social events so I can skip out on eating. Friends>food 

Day twenty-four: Is losing weight one of your top priorities in life?
Yeah. That’s all I write about in my diary (probably because there’s nothing else exciting going on in my personal life). I dream about it… how sad is that? I’ve had several dreams where I binge and I wake up and I think it’s real… then I remember it’s just a dream :) So stressful. 

Day twenty-five: Do you ever eat fast food?
I try to limit it as much as possible. I’ll sneak a few fries here and there, but it’s mostly negligible. Unless subway counts. That shit is so healthy (minus the ridiculous sodium quantities).

Day twenty-six: Do you drink alcohol? What do you generally drink?
I’ve never had a drop of it. I feel like that’s something I’m supposed to do since I’m almost seventeen and all, but an opportunity hasn’t come up, and I’m not going to go out of my way to do it.  

So yesterday I had like 1700+ calories. BUT THEN I RAN INTERVALS FOR ALMOST AN HOUR. So yeah. Damage negated :3 Oh and I’ve been so good about running lately. Gotta train for a half marathon in May, so yeah! 

Intake so far:
Egg sandwich
Apple
Carrots
Half a small brownie
A tiny bit of melons and pineapple
1 slice whole wheat bread
2 peanuts 
1/2 cup 1% milk 
462 CALORIES SO FAR

Exercise
15 minutes interval running 
MINUS 124 CALORIES

TOTAL 338 SO FAR

My parents are having a huge dinner party tonight with lots of fattening yet delicious food, so I’ll let myself eat 500 calories and I think I’ll be okay. I’m feeling really good about my self control right now… but that might change later on XD

ate 1200 calories worth of cookies at school

lol. i’m going for a long run now. fml.

Day twenty-one: Do you listen to music when you work out?

Nah. Since my treadmill is in my basement, I usually have the TV on instead. But the best runs for me are the ones where I don’t have any background noise. I like to focus in on my inner energy, and then times passes quicker (soooo cheesy and weird. I know).

Intake:
Frozen fruit and yogurt
Egg salad
Apple
Yogurt
Squash
Chicken stirfry with zucchini and red peppers
Green beans
A ridiculous amount of buttersquash
Oil
A bit of rice

Total of 1140 calories because I don’t feel like retyping all the values after I’ve inputted them into myfitnesspal. My account is strawbirdies if anyone wants to hit me up!

Exercise
Jazz dance class - minus 60 calories
Mini ab workout

TOTAL OF 1080 CALORIES! Yay for good eating day again! I feel absolutely stuffed right now after having the squash. It’s legitimately the MOST filling food I’ve ever had, and all for only 80 cals a cup. I had one and I half cups and I feel like I just ate a whale. And an elephant. 

On another note, the number on the scale doesn’t bother me as much anymore. As long as I know I’m being accountable with my body, the pounds will come off. Tiny gains/losses are generally fluctuations; I have to look at the overall trend. I feel good! Liberated, almost. It’s sad to think that only a week ago I’d cry and have a mental breakdown if I binged… I think this new attitude will not only help me overcome binges, but will help me avoid them altogether. Physics of thermodynamics is on my side! Also, I don’t believe in plateaus, at least for my body. They only happen because I slip a lot and I never really account for them because I feel guilty. But now I’m counting out everything so I know exactly what’s going into my body.

I’m also trying the no eating at 7PM thing. That’s when I binge the most. 

Byebye lovelies, have a great day :) 

Day twenty: Do you binge? How often and what triggers it?

THIS MORNING I WEIGHED 110 POUNDS. WHICH MEANS FIRST GOAL WEIGHT. WHICH MEANS I GET TO SEND OUT INVITATIONS FOR A CHRISTMAS PARTY. Even though I probably won’t be that weight tomorrow, I reached it once! :D Which means that it’ll be easier to reach it again.

Unfortunately, I do binge. I binge when I’m under stress. Also, if I just have one unhealthy thing, I’m like “fuck it, I’ve already failed today” and then I eat even more. Or I have one piece of something unhealthy, and then I eat it out of a bottomless bag… Hmph. 

Intake:
2 apples - 100
3 pieces of toast - 240
Yogurt - 35
Grapes - 80
Cucumber - 30
1 Carrot - 30
Rolled oats - 20
Mandarin - 30
Pomelo - 30
Broccoli - 30
Shrimp - 50
Tofu - 20
Chicken - 60
Oil - 100
Zucchini lasagna - 200
Total of 1055 calories!

Excercise:
25 minutes of interval running - minus 180 
Ab and butt workout

Grand total of 875 calories! Yay for running two days in a row :) And yay for good eating day. 

I found my shorts I wore before I gained weight…

…AND THEY FIT AGAIN! One of my best parts of the day. ALSO! I have a new goal of gaining more muscle mass. What’s the point of being skinny if I’m just going to be flabby-skinny? I’d much rather be toned. 

Unfortunately I binged on cake… Great.  Intake:
Fried egg
2 pieces of whole grain bread
Salad 
A SHITTON OF CAKE
2 whole grain dinner buns (srslyyyy?)
Some broccoli/shrimp
Mandarin orange
4 skittles
1 Malteser
4 pieces of sugar free gum
Yogurt
2 apples

Total of 1400 calories. Bleh. Net 1250.

But today I also ran intervals :3 And did ab workouts. I’m pretty sure the reason I haven’t been losing weight is because I suck at estimating calories and I graze in the evening, which I don’t count for. And I wasn’t exercising. Man I didn’t expect to be out of breath when I ran intervals today. I was on the provincial cross country team only a few months ago! And now that running season’s done, I’m so out of shape. I want to run a half-marathon in May so I better step it up. 
Today I went to American Eagle and tried on their size 2 jeans! They fit perfectly :3 My friend that I went shopping with is a size zero and I was so jealous! She’s so thin, but she doesn’t want to be. The grass is always going to be greener on the other side.

Day eighteen: Do you have to eat any meals with your family? Are they for or against your diet?
I eat breakfast with my mom in the morning, and supper with both my parents. They’d rather me not lose weight, but they’ve been supportive of my choices.
Day nineteen: Have you ever lied to avoid eating something?
Yeah.

Oh and, if you’re still reading this, I apologize for not posting any doodles recently. I’ve been really busy with school lately. I promise to post some soon :)